Day 7 Date: 5/21/22
Remember the time!
Sess 1: 5:10am-6:05am R25 L25
Break 3 hrs
Sess 2: 8:58am-9:54am L25 R25
Break 1 hr
Sess 3: 11:17am-12:15pm R25 L25
Break 3 hrs
Sess 4: 3:29pm-4:28pm L25 R25
Break 2 hrs
Sess 5: 6:12pm-6:45pm L15 R15
Break 2 hrs
Sess 6: 9:15pm-10:15pm R25 L25
Break 2 hrs
Sess 7: 12:47am-2:26am PPðŸ‘
Amount: .5oz
So after researching, I added another session for the day, which was murder, although I was happy there were results.
We went to my husband's family's house so they could see the baby. I was able to pump there, but it was still stressful, and Frances had to be going through a growth spurt because she wanted so many bottles. I had to cut my session by 30 minutes to leave and get home in time for her next bottle. Frances will not even try to latch at this point, not even for comfort. She enjoys skin to skin, which we have to do because she has colic.
https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/colic/symptoms-causes/syc-20371074
Still, no formula to be found, and now my in-laws are worried, but I think we will figure this out. I could get her .5 oz, but my baby needs more than that. We may need to change her type of formula, but I am trying to stay with the same brand. I dread the moody child I will have to deal with if we change the formula.
I am noticing how people react to the formula shortage; everyone has an opinion. Many blame mothers who don't breastfeed their babies or men suggesting women use their boobs.
The biggest issue is people think breastfeeding is easy; for some women, that's the truth. But not all women have it easy; every time I pump, I feel sick right after. At first, I thought I was imagining it, but then I started getting cramps, and I researched and found there is something that causes this:
https://www.whattoexpect.com/first-year/breastfeeding/dmer-moms-talk-about-the-condition/
The condition is called "Dysphoric Milk Ejection Reflex (D-MER)," while the state only lasts a few minutes. I can feel D-MER making my Complex PTSD bring in emotional memories of abuse and sadness. So after I pump, I must allow myself to live in my emotions for a moment. Trying to lock those memories away can worsen my CPTSD; this makes my pumping experience feel like a burden. The bottom line is breastfeeding isn't always something everyone can do.